How do I tolerate myself today?
How do I tolerate my unusual urges,
My lack of conviction,
My strange dereliction for sexual gratification,
And dissociative meanderings on this app
On this website
With this cup of tea
With this thought about this thought about him
About him when he is like that
Or when he is not,
Feeling like, ‘why the fuck should I tolerate this?’
Oh, hang on. I’m being a dick. Silly, foolish, wanting strokes
Wanting hugs, someone to give me the thumbs up.
It’s ok, I’m alright, I’m alright.
Man, how do I tolerate myself today?